The day that I've long awaited has arrived. But its so damn disappointing. How sad can it be? ):

It sucks man, seriously. I know that your hardworking, you get along well with some people, teachers like you and so, but you don't have to fucking treat the others who don't do their work, copy homework, those who don't study like fucking outcasts right. I don't give a fuck if its my birthday, I don't give a fuck if you say anything to me now, all these don't fucking matter to me anymore. Why cant you be like more social? I know that's your I don't give a fucking shit attitude, but your getting so fucking selfless, only thinking about your own damned self all the time. You talk about their bad things behind their backs, and yet you still hang around with them as if they're your best friends and such. I know what your saying things about me behind my back, I do understand your language alright? But I don't care. You said the word so loudly behind me I think the deaf can even hear it. I know lah, I act that way to only guys that I know, close guy friends. But you don't see me going to every guy in the school acting like im their girlfriend right? Come on, I bet every girl does that, flirting with their closer male friends, right? I treat you like a close friend and all, but what do you treat me as? You treat me so well some in other time and treat me like fucking trash in another. Well, I think I aint good enough lah. But whatever it is, your still my friend.